Wrestling with Demons

Third Sunday of Easter

April 6, 2008


Have you heard the story about the minister who was called to help with a delicate situation? Retired and widowed, Mrs. Smith was hard pressed to make ends meet on her fixed income. Knowing her situation, a distant relative left her ten million dollars in his will. However, she had a cardiac condition, and her children were afraid to break the news to her because the shock might give her a heart attack. So they asked her minister if he might find a gentle way to tell their mother that all her financial worries were over. The minister came to call, and after a few niceties, asked: "Mrs. Smith, what would you do if God gave you ten million dollars?" "Why, Pastor." "I would give half of it to you for the church" she replied. And the minister had a heart attack!

Following Christ is not for the faint of heart. Each of our scriptures today deals in some way with the visceral experience of faith. The Jews, gathered in Jerusalem from all points of the compass to celebrate Pentecost, heard Peter tell the story of Jesus, and they were "cut to the heart." "What should we do?" they asked him urgently, before he could even finish his sermon. Isn't that a pastor's dream come true?! The Epistle of 1 Peter urges us to "love one another deeply, from the heart," telling us that the connection between Christians should be more than casual acquaintance or loose association…telling us that we are actually members of the same family with all the obligations and responsibilities which go with being related by blood. And in the gospel, the risen Christ tells two disciples walking sadly to Emmaus, "Oh, how foolish you are, and how slow of heart to believe." But later, when they recognize him and he disappears from sight, they say to one another, "Didn't our hearts burn within us while he was talking to us on the road?"

Is this a report of something that happened or a parable of how things always happen for us as disciples of Christ? It is still the first day of the week, the first day of the new creation, only now sunset nears. And what a day it has been for Cleopas and Annas, two lesser known followers of Jesus. On Friday they saw Jesus die on the cross, and there their dreams died. On Saturday they learned where he was buried, and there their hopes were buried. But today they have heard a rumor of resurrection, and they don't know what to think. The women claimed they have seen angels announcing Jesus is alive, but these men are accustomed to discounting the voices of women. Peter and John verified the tomb is empty, but what does that prove?

Cleopas and Annas, two lesser known disciples of Jesus, walk in sadness and confusion, unable to trust a rumor just too good to be true. Why is it we are so quick to believe rumors of scandal and tragedy, but we cannot trust a rumor of resurrection…why are we unable to believe good news as soon as we hear it?

A stranger joined them on the way. The story is told so that we know it is Jesus though they do not. Luke tells us simply "their eyes were kept from recognizing him." What does that mean? They didn't recognize him because they were walking with heads down in sorrow rather than eyes lifted in hope? They didn't recognize him because they didn't expect to see him on their dusty road to Emmaus any more than we expect to see Jesus with us in our familiar daily ruts? They didn't recognize him because they were two lesser known followers of Jesus who would never expect him to appear to them, of all people? They didn't recognize him because his appearance had changed in some way so that seeing him is now a matter of spiritual rather than material vision?

He asks them what they are discussing and they are amazed. "Are you the only stranger in Jerusalem who does not know the things that have taken place there in these days?" It was on CNN … in all the newspapers … it’s the talk of the town. "What things?" Jesus asks. What is the news you have to share? They have only bad news … about the One they had hoped might be the Messiah … whom they wanted to trust … in whom they had placed the longings of centuries … but then he was tried and crucified. And they shared the rumor of resurrection which they clearly do not believe because they will trust only as far as their eyes can see. "What a bunch of dim bulbs!" Jesus chides. "What a bunch of slow-hearts!" Is he talking about their lack of faith or ours?  We, who are still so easily disappointed and give up on God when life goes awry?

And then, Jesus opened the scripture to them and explained the necessity of the cross and resurrection, how none of this was accidental, but the plan of God all along. Could Luke be telling us that the inspiration of the biblical authors by itself is not sufficient?  Could he be saying that the church needs the risen Christ to illumine the meaning of the text?  Just like faith, understanding scripture is not a head trip but a matter of the heart.

Still, they did not recognize him until they sat at table with him. Luke described the scene sacramentally, with clear eucharistic language that was already used in the liturgy of the Lord's Supper by the time Luke wrote his gospel and was quite familiar to his audience: "(Jesus) took bread, blessed it, and broke it." That is the "aha" moment. That is when they see who he is. John Claypool wants to say Jesus is revealed by his gratitude, as are all his followers. I think that is true, but what Luke wants to tell us is that the risen Christ is at the table with us whenever we share the sacred supper.  That is when we recognize him.  That is where we see who he is.

Caravaggio painted this scene with dramatic realism in 1601. It depicts the moment of recognition. The two disciples, dressed in dark clothes are slack jawed. One disciple's hands fly out to the sides in surprise. The other is bolting from his chair. The light in the picture seems to radiate from Christ and illumines their features. But Caravaggio adds a character not present in Luke's story … a servant who does not know Jesus … who stands dully by watching this scene as the risen Lord of the new creation blesses the sacred supper with two lesser known disciples. There are those who will always be oblivious to the presence of God.

And in that moment, he is gone. They say to each other: "Didn't our hearts burn within us while he was talking to us on the road, while he was opening the scriptures to us?" Like Moses, who was only allowed to see the glory of God after God had passed by, so we see the glory … and recognize Christ … in the aftermath. Our eyes are blinded by sorrow and our lack of faith in the moment of crisis, but later we can see that Christ was walking with us all along.

The disciples recognized him, and he disappeared from sight, and that's when they remember: "Didn't our hearts burn within us while he was talking to us on the road?" They are seized by a passion which drove them back to the disciples in Jerusalem to testify … to share their news … which is now nothing but good news.

All our scriptures today - especially the story of the walk to Emmaus - remind us that faith is a visceral experience. As Susan Andrews suggests:

They are about pounding hearts, wounded hearts and burning hearts. And they invite us to encounter the living Christ in the heart of who we are. Kathleen Norris and others remind us that "to believe" is not a matter of the mind but a matter of the heart. For what we "believe" is what we "give our heart to."

We're not talking about a mindless emotionalism here, driven by the need for a weekly high, confusing excitement for spirituality, a feel-good faith which evaporates at the first sign of strain. But we are talking about a faith that is more than just in your head. Jesus Christ is not merely a good idea that we choose to believe. He is a living presence who encounters us in our daily lives and sets our hearts on fire. Believing in Jesus means giving yourself to being his disciple because you have been seized by someone greater than you … someone who captures your mind and emotion and will and imagination. Being a Christian means living from the inside out, not driven by external appearance, but engaged with enthusiasm from the deepest center of your being. Enthusiasm is combination of two Greek words - en theos - the inward God.

John Wesley was born to a scholarly rector of the church of England. He was raised in the church. Well educated by his literate mother, he attended Oxford to become a minister like his father, and then went on a missionary tour to Georgia, where he encountered the Moravians.  They impressed him with their serene and certain faith. But Wesley suffered through a disappointing love affair, became ill, and his ship was buffeted by terrible storms as he returned to England.  Near the point of abandoning the ministry, he confessed to the Moravian Peter Boehler that in spite of his advanced academic knowledge of the Christian faith, he still lacked saving faith and wondered if he should quit preaching altogether. Boehler told him, "Preach faith until you have it, and then, because you have it, you will preach faith." Still troubled by his doubt and self-doubt, Wesley attended a Moravian meeting. In his journal for May 24, 1738, he writes:

In the evening I went very unwillingly to a society in Aldersgate Sreet, where one was reading from Luther's preface to the Epistle to the Romans. At about a quarter before nine…, while he was describing the change which God works in the heart through faith in Christ, I felt my heart strangely warmed. I felt I did trust in Christ, Christ alone for salvation; and an assurance was given me that He had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.

Wesley went on to become the founder of Methodism and an influential spiritual leader in the history of Christendom, because he moved from an intellectual appropriation of his religion to an engagement with the living Christ who had seized his heart.

As Marcus Borg suggests, whether this story of Luke's happened or not, who can say? But that it happens again and again, we can all attest. Even when we feel we are walking alone in despair, Jesus walks with us. It's a good word for us who live in this cynical, materialistic time. It’s truly good news for us who can't help being so infected by doubt that we tend to disbelieve any good news we hear. I probably wouldn't urge this message upon a Pentecostal church who may need to be reminded to love the Lord their God with all their mind. But to a progressive church like ours whom some of my evangelical friends might lovingly call "the frozen chosen," it is a good reminder that being a Christian isn't all in your head. More importantly, for those who are facing the darkness, the pit, life and death struggles with relationships, health, or whatever challenge darkens your horizon like an approaching storm, it is a good reminder that the risen Christ walks with you, even if you do not see him, even if you feel like a lesser known disciple not likely to be on his list of upcoming appearances.

Are you wrestling with your own demons? Look to the past and remember how he has brought you safe thus far. Look here and see Jesus illuminating the faces around you. Look at what some of our people are doing in their daily walks with those less fortunate - not because they think it is what Jesus would want done, but because Christ is alive in their hearts and they give their hearts to his work. I'm telling you, here and there, now and then, suddenly you will see him among us as plain as the nose on your face, not with your eyes, but with your heart. In fact, beloved, I have heard a rumor of resurrection here at Nekoosa United Church of Christ.  Have you heard the same thing? Do you believe it?  

May we pray?

Living Savior, you meet us where we are that you might lead us where you wish. Walk with us wherever we walk. Open our ears to hear and understand your word. Open our eyes to see the opportunities we have to serve you. Open our hearts to your loving presence that we might be seized from within by the One from beyond who is risen indeed. Amen.

 


Mary Anne Biggs, Pastor
Nekoosa United Church of Christ
Nekoosa
, Wisconsin